Not feeling great lately,under to much pressure

since i had created this blog
i felt that most of the post were rather negative then positive
something is not right here
isn't it my luck or should i say the changing of fate
who knows O.o?
well~
everything hasn't been how to say in it order lately
it like everything is changing in a sudden
and i dint have the chance to get uses to it.
seriously
there are more negative things happening around me
and it isn't in my sense that i wanted it
maybe this is the real kind of life that we should facing
when we are in the real world
i mean now it seems like
we are in the hands of our parents
and everything has been ready for us
and we don't need to worry about money problem
or economy crisis etc..
but it seems like things really don't goes the way you like
problem makes people grow
now i really truly understand what my parents were saying
for the pass few years...
to me this pass 3 year was a nightmare
and i don't even want to think back
what i had went though
what i had done
what i had face...
truly it a nightmare
a horrible one~
at the beginning of 2008 i was actually thinking
it might change from nightmare to maybe a better view
but i was wrong
it is normal at first but
i changes from nightmare to hell in the end
and it is just the beginning of being in hell.
to outsider its like watching a movie or something
people may even laugh at you...
really surely hope that things may get better soon
otherwise i really don't know how much longer could i suffer from this kind of pressure
and started being mad~