Plans on year 2009

This could possibility
be the last post of the year 2008...
Well honestly ,
to think back what i had did this year...
and to think far ahead what's going to happen next year
lastly the conclusion is
'' I DONT KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME ''
i have 0% of confidence to face
next year's challenge...
I m feeling kinda down this few weeks
thinking of what's going to happen...
seriously i know that more pressure is going come,
more tears will be wasted
but...
what is the worst to come...
how much longer can i suffer...
what is the worst step that i would take if i cant take it anymore...
I m totally lost now...
I wanna make a right choice next year...
I wanna leave here...
Althought they had been telling me that i have been given
a lot not just freedom but also
many other things that maybe other parents wouldnt affort to give their kids...
Yes , i admit i have a lot which other kids dont have...
and wouldnt have the chance to have it...
But what is better then parents understand what their kid feel about
and what they really want...
I m really sick of trying to convince them what i really want...
Like they always said...
'' Why do you like to saty inside your room for the whole day beside having your dinner and taking your bath... ''
OK the reason i like to stay in my room ,
dating my computer whole day is because...
1.I dont feel like home when i have one and even leave in it.
2.You guys dont understand what i m trying to say.
3.Online is the only way which i really get someone to talk with even if its just typing.
4.There is hardly anyone i can communicate with in the house.
I m human myself
i have my own pressure...
i understand you guys have too
but since we cant communicate well,
i need my own way to release my stress too...by chatting online ><
And to way to reduce your stress is
by appearing less in front of you...
so you all wouldnt get angry on whatever things you suddenly think of...
and to appear less i need to get myself busy online...
This is why i date my pc so much...
And you guys keep on repeating the same thing...
arent you not satisfied...
I understand and i had already got what u mean longer enough...
i m not a kid anymore i know what you are trying to tell me
but i dont show it doesnt mean i dont understand
i some ways you guys are good parents
and someways you fail to be parents......
The only way i can do now is to hope for the best to come...
and hoping the speed of passing the year 2009 goes faster...
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and also hope that 2009 wouldnt be the end of my life.....

原来烦的不知是我

原来最近
有很多人都有事情在烦……
我呢?
老样子我还是很烦……
烦什么呢?
一些开导我的人应该都懂了吧……
我不想多说
只是希望……
2009年不会是面线的死期……
在这里有写话想对民歌家族的成员说

吉他:虽然不知道你发生什么事了，
不过还是希望你不要太悲观……
加油吧吉他……
希望很快可以看到以前那个
没有形象的吉他弦^^

黑猫猫:加油哦黑猫猫……
虽然不是很清楚你发生了什么事
不过……不要想就没事啦
么么~~~~~~

白猫猫:白猫~
不知道你说很开心是不是真的
不过我希望是真的……
加油哦……^^

开心就好:开心你应该好一点了吧?
要说的都在你的blog留言啦^^
加油哦^^

剩下没有说的都ok……
真希望烦恼快点消失……
你们的也是，
我的也是……
还是老样子
在我还没有想通之前……
我不想接任何……
msn，
skype，
call，
sms……
不用费心的找我
我自己的事，
我想要自己想通它……
我想通了自然会回复……

圣诞节变成病淡节

今年的圣诞节就……
只有生病的度过了
最近……
心情很糟糕
电话不想接……
sms不想回……
skype不想讲……
msn不想开……
所以找我的你们，
不用找了，我想接的时候我会回的……
圣诞节礼物也谢啦……
我说过会给的一定会给……
在给点时间……
暂时生病没办法出去……
心情不好，是我自己闹脾气……
不要管我…………………………真的不用管我………………

==============以上话题结束，不想交代太多=================

12月里
在sdo-x结婚了两次哦
可是是不同的户口啦
不是同一个
这个是Seablue Diamond Ring
而且我们是买Darkangle wings pack的哦
黑天使翅膀~
这个是Foreverlove Diamond Ring
钻石戒指
而且我们的服装很酷哦……呵呵

Is Dreams bigger then Money

Recently, in the holiday
suddenly so many thing come to me at once...
i had just read someones blog
which that person is giving up her dreams for money
so i m starting to think
is dream more important then money
or the other way round.
Are we humans
'' Live for money or have money to live ''
Money is a very important thing,
everyone should agree with it...
without money there is no live
everything in this world now costes money...
but...
What makes $ so important?
Why is $ so important?
When do $ started to become so important?
Where did the idea of having $ came from?
and etc...
there are still lots of question in my mind
$$$ $$$ $$$ $$$ $$$ $$$ $$$
Money makes human crazy...
people are willing to die for Money~
Lifes are becaming more over taken by Money.
There is a saying in cantonese
'' em thong lei dai di qin lok gun choi tou mei ''
which means
bringing the money you have in to your grave...
seriously if you dont understand what i m writing
please do try to ignore what you had read
its just something that came to me...
MISO : MIRROR MIRROR ON THE WALL~
WHO'S THE PRETTEST OF THEM ALL?
MIRROR : $$$ MONEY $$$

最近很烦

最近很烦啊~
根本不知道自己要的是什么
想的是什么……
说要忘记的，
切又忘不掉……
很想忘记
真的很想
可是偏偏就忘不了……
感觉上
全部的东西都发生在不对的时候
很前很希望发生的事，
虽然发生了,也过了
可是
现在切希望它从没发生过……
我到底还是停留在原点，
还是往前走着?
不想去回想……
不想emo……
不想这样过……
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到底怎么样才能解脱~

过的很快的放假

When to Langkawi for the pass few days
bought a lot of things...

mostly...

C H O C O L A T E....!!!

i had spend about RM350++

on chocolate itself

OMG...

My Room

Vodka alcoholic drink Chocolate which i bought 18 pic Ferrero Rocher Hill = = More chocolate

sailing yards
that about all i think not much to say
not much to show just that
life seem boring me

忙碌的一个星期

这个星期
过的很快很快
我几乎都不知道我在做什么……
这里跑哪里跑的……
医院也进进出出了好几次
外拨也跑了好几趟
shopping也很多
钱更加不用加几乎都花光了
我身上的cash
笨ATM card又被block了
钱完全被冻结了……
haiz……
最近又有几个新目标了
PSP ?
IPOD NANO?
IPOD TOUCH?
头痛头痛头痛啊……
到底买什么好呢?
要不全部买到完?
可是我没那个钱……
晕啊……
最近喜欢上这首歌哦
'' Have I Told You Lately ''
谢谢那个特地学唱的笨蛋
呵呵……
就这样明天在写……
晚安^^

My Holiday

Twilight

Madagascar

White Chocolate Dream

&

Homemade Blueberry Muffin

Chunky Chocolate Walnut Cookie

&

Chocolate Pistachio Biscotti

Starbucks Chrismas Special [forgot the name]

Mango Apple Juice

Blackberry Juice

Picture tells everything...
watched Twilight...
Madagascar...
When to Starbucks and Coffee Bean often
bring a long my laptop...cool~

闷，无聊，无助，不爽……

这个假期
对我来说根本一点意义都没有
每天只是睡觉
宅女……睡觉……宅女
要不然
就那laptop去QB or Gurney
然后跑去Starbucks online
还是一样宅女的生活
我……快……闷……死……啦……
真的觉得
这个假期倒霉到~
现在
上线也要偷偷摸摸的
乌龟！！
放假也不给我上线
真想快点毕业
快点离开这里！！！
算了……
没那个心情在写下去了
超级闷……
超级的无聊……
超级的很无助……
非常超级的不爽……！！！